Do you struggle with yourself or are you normal?

I always thought of staying alone, on my own, no bounds, no restrictions, no questions asked. I wanted to purchase and decorate each and everything on my own..May it be a curtain, a pillow cushion, a bedsheet or just a spoon. I knew that it was going to be difficult but it seemed adventurous. I always wanted to live my life on my terms. My expectations from myself.
One day, finally i stepped out and made my mind that it's enough!
I can't take anything anymore. Not because i am facing any issues from my family or friends but because i lost myself in searching happiness in others and for others. I just stayed alone for one day. The whole day. 8 to 9 hours i guess. Those moments were exactly as i was imagining. I watched movies, ate whatever i felt like. Ordered pizza from Zomato. I was laughing listening songs. Wearing clothes checking myself out in mirror, felt happiest until i realised silence is cool but i was actually looking for someone to talk and there was no one.
I started introspecting or may i say overthinking, what if things are like this but i have someone to ask me how am I? What am I doing? Maybe i walk like the girls on ramp and show what all i shopped
I learnt Something today..
Living all alone is amazing, maybe i am too comforted by my surrounding so i expect people to be around but i forget,
I have been going out too much, it's time for me to go within.
Within my skin, within my heart, within my mind, and within my soul. And that's when i will again love to live on my own.
It's time to quit comfort and live against our easy going life.
What are your thoughts on it...?